God knows I have no mood at all now, and so much things just came into my mind, mixed up all my thoughts.

Second time of facing the death of someone in the family, ohh gosh this sucks. I don't really know what's the feeling I am having now. It's like it really really out of the control. Lily told me that when my uncle is in his sleep, he hept calling my name, which means my name is the first to be called, then followed by my cousins. This is damn wierd as in, I thought he hates me! Neither am I like him in any extend.

fuck, i hate this